CTheHouses 2025-01-13 00:38:13

I see that you have used a translator for this, so I will not make this comment too philosophical as I have done with other ones I’ve written before.

First, do not think about yourself as if you were nothing until proven otherwise, as that mindset will deter you, one way or another, just like it has for countless of other victims of it. It originated from people whose goal was to be the greatest of all time, but was slowly turned into a psychological weapon, until it reached the state it is at now, in which, if your name isn’t along the greatest people to ever live, then it will be lost to time, and you will be remembered as an insignificant being, if someone even remembers you.
You were always human. They are always human. And such will never change.

Second, don’t torture yourself by thinking of a past you once had, or a distant future that could slowly drill your mind to pieces. Think in the present. What You are now. What do you want to do? What do you think will make you happy? Enjoy life as it goes by, the past has left and will not be changed, and, as long as your future doesn’t involve you in a dumpster with your pockets empty, you may slowly build yourself a joyful life, one you don’t hate yourself too much for.
Hey, maybe even use the money from a job you don’t hate to continue on your artistic journey! Just, don’t die bankrupt, ok?

Third, you’ll have to slowly get better and better on your journey to become, well, whatever type of artist you want to be, whenever it is a Disney animator or an indie idol. it’ll take time, but if you go the right direction and try not to stop advancing too much, you’ll eventually get there. remember, practice on the things you aren’t yet good at, learn as much as you’ll need, try to open yourself to bigger and bigger projects when you’re ready, and have a plan to kill everyone you- wait, wrong script. Sorry.

And lastly, yeah, the Doctor Everyone-Who-Knows-A-Lot-About-Artists says that people only wanting NSFW from you is a symptom of making said art in the first place. Don’t worry, you can heal from it by either making better SFW art than NSFW art (which is sometimes really hard, but in the end is a better option when you’re trying to get better at art considering SFW isn’t as limited as NSFW and will always eventually be better) or… well… stopping, limiting or slowing down the production of it.

I hope that this is more helpful than harmful to you, although I’d prefer it not to be harmful in the first place, heh. This is some of the advice I have gotten through the years, although some of it doesn’t really fit someone like me.

Also if you wanna, listen to the song Memory Of Life by Shogo Sakai. So if everything else didn’t get to help you, at least I still give something to remember.

remember, remember…